~Looking Back...*~
Thursday, January 31, 2008 |7:54 PM
~*Looking Back...*~
*Wo...I am stucked between now and future. I finally received the documents I have been waiting for but yet, I need an approved "pass" to allow me to proceed for future.In dilemma,what should I do, when to do and do and do and do what?GOD, I have faith in YOU. I trust YOU that YOU will guide me to the way and place I should be.
I need to start a new life at a new place. Leave behind all the sweet,bitter,sad,happy memories. Memories, no matter how hard you wanted to forget or letting it go, but the reality it is still your memories.
How I wish I could forget all the unhappiness and only keep the happy and blissful moment. At least when I look back next time, I will smile instead of weep. But, the reality is not as such. Although I have been through the time that I really lost myself, GOD still keep HIS promises and love me as how HE loves his other children.
I felt re-born and transformed and changed and have totally a new life after a big hu-ha happened in my life. When once upon a time I thought I need "you" very badly, but looking back now, I actually live much better and I can live by myself and do not need to be dependent. Thanks to "you" that letting me know that I will have a better future without "you" and I do not need "you" anymore. If time could turn back, I will dare to say that I NEED "YOU" but since I can't turn back time, I can loudly and proudly tell the world that Sorry, I need "you" once upon a time but I do not need "you" anymore now...As what "you" ever said I will know how to handle relationship better after this...and YES I do...
Time passed real fast and I am a grown up little girl now. I may still look like a little girl, and "you" may think I am still myself that you know in the past.BUT...sorry, my heart became as hard as stone now and I live for my family, my friends and myself and I am still living because of GOD's love...
I pray and wish "you" all the best in your future undertakings...
Quote of the day: Being forgotten is really hurt, but being remembered doesn't mean life will be better...*
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