~Looking Back...*~
Thursday, January 31, 2008 |7:54 PM
~*Looking Back...*~
*Wo...I am stucked between now and future. I finally received the documents I have been waiting for but yet, I need an approved "pass" to allow me to proceed for future.In dilemma,what should I do, when to do and do and do and do what?GOD, I have faith in YOU. I trust YOU that YOU will guide me to the way and place I should be.I need to start a new life at a new place. Leave behind all the sweet,bitter,sad,happy memories. Memories, no matter how hard you wanted to forget or letting it go, but the reality it is still your memories.How I wish I could forget all the unhappiness and only keep the happy and blissful moment. At least when I look back next time, I will smile instead of weep. But, the reality is not as such. Although I have been through the time that I really lost myself, GOD still keep HIS promises and love me as how HE loves his other children.I felt re-born and transformed and changed and have totally a new life after a big hu-ha happened in my life. When once upon a time I thought I need "you" very badly, but looking back now, I actually live much better and I can live by myself and do not need to be dependent. Thanks to "you" that letting me know that I will have a better future without "you" and I do not need "you" anymore. If time could turn back, I will dare to say that I NEED "YOU" but since I can't turn back time, I can loudly and proudly tell the world that Sorry, I need "you" once upon a time but I do not need "you" anymore now...As what "you" ever said I will know how to handle relationship better after this...and YES I do...Time passed real fast and I am a grown up little girl now. I may still look like a little girl, and "you" may think I am still myself that you know in the past.BUT...sorry, my heart became as hard as stone now and I live for my family, my friends and myself and I am still living because of GOD's love...I pray and wish "you" all the best in your future undertakings...Quote of the day: Being forgotten is really hurt, but being remembered doesn't mean life will be better...*
~*H@ppy DaY*~
Monday, January 28, 2008 |11:07 PM
~* HaPPy DaY*~
*I received a call this morning at 9.25am. A very important call that I have been waiting for since last week. Mixture of feelings....speechless, happy,nervous ahah, conclusion, I am very happy and feel blessed. I know HE has HIS plans for me and I just have to follow him. I know HE will guide me to go through all the obstacles and provide the best for me. HE will not burden me with a burden that I can't carry on my own. HE will carry for me and always be with me. GOD loves sweet girl like ME!*
~*下乡团，团圆饭 26 Jan 2008*~
Sunday, January 27, 2008 |8:35 PM
~*下乡团，团圆饭 26 Jan 2008*~
*不知不觉，我们已经认识了六年。在2002年，就是我们开始认识彼此都没想到可以变很好很好的朋友。大家毕业了往自己的方向走。最开心的事就是，虽然毕业分开了四年，见面的时候还是一样热情一样有温暖的感觉。每一年，就是等这一餐团圆饭。
为什么吃团圆饭呢？一，每个人可以集合在一起，但每年的团圆饭都没有35团员来到。二，可以回想我们下乡开心的日子。
说会开心和伤心，我真得很久感受不到什么是开心什么是伤心。可能越来越老，人自然没有感情了，或对感情没要求。唯一的感情就是放在家人和朋友的身上。很多人都说，我怎么样才会学习去爱别人呢？他们的意思就是我的life partner.到现在，最爱的人还是自己。要爱一个人不容易。不想活在一个很为难很痛苦的世界里。。。
~*我和我妹*~
Saturday, January 26, 2008 |11:10 AM
~*我和我妹*~
*很多人都说我跟我妹一点都不像，我们也这么觉得。还记得我们小时候的样子长得还是一模一样的！大概我们差不多三岁时吧。我妹小我六岁，小时候我们的感情不算好啦因为年龄的关系。但是，一直到我们一起到西马生活感情就变成越来越好。每个星期天都会抽时间出来见个面。
我常觉得对我妹太严了！可能因为很想保护她不想她受任何伤害。看到她读书读到那么辛苦，想帮也帮不了忙因为我不是念电脑课程的。哈哈！好可怜哦！
当家里最大的孩子还真的不容易。很累，有时候很孤单。很想回到十年前的我，什么都不用想。每天都很开心地过日子，开心得像个开心果一样。而现在的我，就要扮到很开心的样子，不想身边的人看到我不开心的脸。
我每天都会问一问自己，“我们到底为谁而活呢？”不管为自己或别人而活，还是要继续走下去。走了二十多年的路程也教了我们很多东西，看清楚很多事情。不要为别人而改变自己，一定要为了自己而改变。这样才是真正的自己。
有时候，想放慢脚步听一听别人的想法。在朋友当中我每次都发出最多意见。突然很想听别人的想法。每个人都会对事情有不一样的看法，但最后的决定还是要自己好好的想一想然后才知道自己应该要怎么做。需要一个属于自己的空间不受别人打扰。
在我们的一生中，会遇到三种人（这是我一个朋友跟我说过的）一，爱你但你不爱的人。二，你爱但不爱你的人。三，你们彼此相爱但不能在一起的人。很多人都会跟不是自己最爱的人在一起。跟自己最爱的人在一起不代表会白头到老。不能跟自己爱的人在一起，是不是很遗憾很悲伤呢？如果已经做到最好，不需要觉得遗憾，就回头跟自己说“曾经跟你相遇，是我一生中最棒的回忆！”这样，是不是可以放松自己然后活得更开心？*
~*Most Important Part of Your Body*~
|11:06 AM
~*Most Important Part of Your Body*~
*My mother used to ask me: "What is the most important part of the body?"
Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct answer. When I was younger, I thought sound was very important to us as humans, so I said, "My ears, Mommy.
"Mother said, "No Many people are deaf. But you keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon."
Several years passed before she asked me again. Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated the correct answer. So this time I told her, "Mommy, sight is very important to everybody, so it must be our eyes." Mother looked at me and told me, "You are learning fast, but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind.
"Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge. Over the years, Mother asked me a couple more times and always her answer was, "No, but you are getting smarter every year, my child."
Then on 31st Dec 2006, my grandma died. Everybody was hurt. Everybody was crying. Even my father cried. I remember that especially because it was only the second time I saw him cry. My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final good-bye to Grandma.
Mother asked me, "Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?"
I was shocked when she asked me this now. I always thought this was a game between her and me. Mother saw the confusion on my face and told me, "This question is very important. It shows that you have really lived in your life. For every body part you gave me in the past, I have told you was wrong and I have given you an example why. But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson."
Mother looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up with tears. Mother said, "My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder."
I asked, "Is it because it holds up my head?"
Mother replied, "No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry. Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only hope that you have enough love and friends that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it."
Then and there I knew the most important body part is not a selfish one. It is sympathetic to the pain of others. People will forget what you said... People will forget what you did.... But people will NEVER forget how you made them feel...*
~*圣诞快乐。。。*~
|10:27 AM
~*圣诞快乐。。。*~
*Felt that I just reach Sg for Christmas celebration and now I am back in Msia again sob sob, to the place that full of all sort of stress! Christmas, Christmas, Christmas! I was in the Grace Methodist Church in Sg for Sunday and Christmas celebration. Most of us use the word ‘Xmas’ all the time. Well, during the Sunday service, the speaker said “ I don’t celebrate a Merry X’ mas”. How can we celebrate “Christmas” without “Christ”?
Can you celebrate a birthday without a birthday boy or birthday gal? The answer is definitely “NO”. Everyone is celebrating Christmas everywhere in the world but did anyone really know the meaning of Christmas? Ask people around you, i. Do you celebrate Christmas? If yes proceed to ask, ii. Why do you celebrate Christmas? Iii. Do you know the meaning of Christmas? iv. What do you do during Christmas? People who know the real meaning of Christmas will not treat it as a fun, or time to be happy or time to go for holidays! YES, we celebrate Christmas as we celebrate the birth of Christ, our Lord Jesus！
Christmas is my favorite celebration of all the celebrations. Why? Just feel peace in life when Christmas season comes. Felt the bliss, felt the happiness, felt the love! For the past 15 years, I have been celebrating Christmas in Sg. Back in 2000-2004 I was not in Sg for Christmas, as that were the years I was back in the university and celebrated in KL with my dearest housemates! It was real memorable and sweet, every year we’ll have dinner on Christmas eve, then proceed to wait for countdown in KL, waited patiently for countdown, stand for about 7-8 hours waiting due to the crowds and no place to sit at all! When the clock strikes at 12 mid night sharp, there will be hug and kisses and then the party starts! Went crazy walking along the street at Golden Triangle and sprayed peoples, cars around with the foam spray like nobody business. Waaaaa, I love that kind of life, no stress and nothing! Just enjoy enjoy enjoy! Time passed real fast but the feeling was like it just happened yesterday and recently。
The most enjoyable Christmas in Sg was my recent visit there. Really enjoyed the companion by my cousin and her bf. Well, good looking, smart, funny boy! Why I say boy yea…hmmm, is because he is just 18! We have lots and lots and lots of chats! Talking none stop and I feel like I am “obasan” already! Both of them really a sweet young couple. Love each other like no one around them. Have lots of future plans where I don’t have most in my life. Erm, like how to move forward in the relationship, how to stay with each other forever, how to love each other forever. I miss the companion and I miss them so much!! Hwaaaa hwaaa….I wanna go back there! I believe God has HIS own plan for me. I think I have to be serious and real serious to start looking for a job there. What’s the plan? Resign and go over and start the job hunting? Or wait for the news from others (too dependent right)? I am just too confused what should I do…*
~*GreaT adviCe for eVerYone*~
Saturday, January 19, 2008 |11:39 PM
~*GreaT adviCe for eVerYone*~
*Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.
Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate!
Don't regress.Don't live in the past.
Time can't bring anything or anyone back.Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your biologicalclock is ticking.
Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some oflife's more hasty decisions.
To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.
To make yourself happy, pursue your passions & be the best of what you canbe.
Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, anddangerous liaisons.
on't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.
Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.
Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.
Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.
Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.
It isn't true that life does not get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid.
Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old.
Just grow YOU!
When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your lifethat you'll never get back.
Your time is your life.
That is why the greatest gift you can give tosomeone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love isT-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or providefor others, but how much we give of ourselves.
God is good all the time!*
*Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you'vedecided to see beyond the imperfections. ..*
~*我和靓女Maggie,Anta 和靓仔Alan!*~
|11:29 PM
~*我和靓女Maggie,Anta 和靓仔Alan!*~
嗨！ 这是我和Maggie,Anta & Alan!!很靓女靓仔对不对?..这是我们在越南拍的照片！越南很热很热。。。热死我们了啦！真的很幸福因为马来西亚虽然是热，但没越南那么热！真的会 害死人的啦！很开心！希望可以和Anta,Maggie和Alan弟，再一次一起去旅行。。。
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