~@-PriNCe$s 纡妤~

~LooKing baCk @ 2010~

2011-01-01T21:15:00.003+08:00

~*LooKing baCk @ 2010*~

It has been quite sometime since I last blogged. 2010 has been quite a busy, happy, sad, confused, in short = mix feelings ^_^.

20 Apr 2010: I tendered my resignation in M1...
19 Apr 2010: My last day with M1
1 May 2010: Someone new came into my life and embark on the journey together
19 Apr 2010: My last day @ work with M1 (is this a new beginning?)
20 May 2010: My new employment with NexWave Telecoms

New employment has been quite tough since my predecessor left 1 month before I joined and there's totally no handover to me...Time passed quite fast in the new company without me realizing what I have really done thru out the year...

1 Sep 2010: Big day, yes of course!It's my bday!
Besties- Took me to Batam for surprise celebration and bought me pearl earring from Citigem
Colleagues- Took me to Carnivor for yummy buffet lunch! But because I'm unwell, I can't really eat that much and bought me Hello Kitty stuffs
Bf- Took me for a very nice dinner @ Ma Maison, Bugis and bought me a pretty LV wallet!

19 Nov 2010: Yes, without realizing I've been with the company for 6 months and finally passed my probation.

I always have this thought that only big company will have "small idiots" playing politics. But to my surprise, I'm so so so wrong. Even a small company with only 60 employees also full of politics and 2 faces people.

Till now, I should say I'm quite lucky as I have a good boss but at the same time need to handle 2 faces people that I need to face and support everyday...sigh...I've no choice but to stay on...Have been thinking what I really want to do in life but I've yet to reach any conclusion till today.

Once I thought I will quit my job and take a long break to go for world tour. But later I changed my mine. How bout taking a long break and do a voluntary job in less fortunate country? Sounds interesting right? But I must be rich in order to do that. How can I survive if I do not have enough savings to hold me on...erm... say a year?

24 Dec 2010: It's Christmas Eve, everywhere is crowded and this year, it's very very cold...but still lack of something, YES YES YES! It's the snow!

25 Dec 2010: Went for a normal dinner and watch movie (sounds so boring huh?) with Mindy's bf, Hildya's bf and my bf of coz

We always hear this "Life is like a box of chocolate". Yes I agree as we do not know what we going to get...

30 Dec 2010: Bosses threw a bomb by the retrenchment announcement. Retrenchment??!!Economy is doing well but but but? Well, I can come out with 1mil excuses but decision is still with the bosses...

I felt very sorry in my life for the first time...I mean @ workplace. Altho I'm not very close to my colleagues but we see each other almost everyday. 1 of them, is my teammate. It seems I've taken over her position thus she has to leave. Altho bosses said it's a restructuring but I still couldn't get over it.

My boss said, this is very normal in a corporate world. Either you stay or the other person stays. It all depends on luck but I think I trust god more as HE has his plans for me. I'm feeling quite moody and down, as I don't think this is a good news to end the year 2010...

The only thing that I can say...goodbye 2010 and Welcome 2011 with a hope and better tomorrow ahead...

~Things Happening in Jan 2010~

2010-02-02T16:19:00.018+08:00

~*Things Happening in Jan 2010*~

4 Jan: Back to work after 2 week break...*_*. Feeling lethargic...

20 Jan: It was my boss's last day at work. Everyone was asking whether I'm very happy. To me, I'm not happy nor unhappy. I'm just...feelingless towards her. haha!

24 Jan: I got my new 740sc (Softbank Mobile Phone) at S$350! Cheap huh?

25 Jan: Hmm...I was promoted and got my promotion letter ^_^

28 Jan: I got my 16gb iPhone at only S$12.60! (btw, it's a totally new set)

29 Jan: 2150 hrs- Flying off to Seoul on Asiana Airlines to see my JKS!It was my first time to Korea and I don't know a word of Hangul except "annyeong haseyo, gamsa hamnida, komapsumida, ne, jungsunghamnida". I think I'm crazy, somemore I'm flying alone...

30 Jan: 0530 hrs- Reached Incheon Airport, took limousine bus to Jamsil, where my hotel is....it's 0650 hrs when I reached Sincheon Subway Station. 24 hrs convenience store staff doesn't speak English. So...what am I supposed to do. Where is my Jamsil Tourist Hotel btw?I happened to stop a passer by (a couple) and the guy knows how to speak English! Weee!!!He told me to take a cab and instead of Jamsil Tourist Hotel, tell the cab driver Jamsil Kuang Guang Hotel (it sounds like that lar hah, but exact spelling in Hangul, I'm not very sure).Well, cab driver also don't know English! But nvm, he knows where I wanted to go to and paid 2,400 won for 2 minutes ride....

Checked in hotel at 0700hrs, took a shower and went for nap till 1200 hrs (korean time)- Singapore time will be 1 hour later which is 1100 hrs. Showered again and head to Myeon-dong for shopping! Yay!! Btw, I only shopped less than 30 minutes in Myeon-dong. Why? It's because of my obsessive compulsive buying behaviour my bag is too heavy and I couldn't carry it and walk around anymore hence I headed back to my hotel and watch TV. Haha! What a waste.....At 2230 hrs....Zzz Zzzz....

31 Jan: Yes, this is D-Day that I've waited for! Our Jang Keun Suk's FM at Seoul Olympic Hall @ Olympic Park. Reached the hall at 1030 hrs. Still early, not many people. So I queued and bought 2 hood sweater (1 for me and 1 for my cousin- Illustration by JKS himself!), 1 set of file folder with his image for my cousin and a USB memory card for myself!And I'm officially a Cri-J!Saw my membership card?

It was really cold, I think should be 1 degree. No joke man, standing under such a cold weather for bout 2 hours. I could hear his singing rehearsal from outside the hall!At 1pm, we're allowed to enter.

Our JKS's FM finally started at 2pm!He came out from a moving basement to stage and sang Without Words! Wow....he's really born to be a star.His live singing was really.....down to earth!Even dead people can crawl out from the grave...(hehe....too exaggerating hor?)

Next, it was a Q&A session with MC erm....(I couldn't remember the MC name, jungsung hamnida...). Our JKS really humorous, funny, cute, loveable and many many more. He's really honest and answered all questions directed to him.That's why we all (Eels/Cri J) love him because of his personality right?

After the Q&A, it was JKS's and friends heart to heart sharing session!He has 5 best friends. They always hang out together!People might misunderstand he's a gay but he's clarified in previous interview that he's not and he loves woman (noona like me?^_^) 1 of his best friends said, he meets JKS at least 3 times a day when they're not occupied. He only meet his gf once in a week but meet JKS so many times....pity his gf...haha....but I think his gf would understand their friendship.And also, his friends said he doesn't like to bathe, maybe 3 days still wearing same clothes!Oh no!I thought he's a hygiene freak? And he responded by saying, he's trying to protect the environment by reducing his number of shower?Lame eh...

Our JKS continued his singing session by presenting the song Goodbye, specially for all the crew and working teams...he really sing it very very well and put all his effort looking forward for this FM.

And guess what, he made a video showing his house, what's in his house, what boxers he has- cute cartoon boxer.... (making all the eels screaming and having breathing problem), showing his CK lime green underwear!! his kitchen, his bedroom and basically everything he has in his house lah.

CF time!Remember Drag It CF for Samsung? If you're an eel, you sure know this, if not...please do more homework before you tell people you're JKS's eel!haha....Yes yes...he directed and edited the CF himself. So it was shown to all the eels during FM session. Is there really such a perfect person in this world?? Well, he's not perfect!He can do everything except lip sync! hahaha...hilarious!

Wow wow! Our JKS showing off his DJ skills!But he really got this professional DJ's look. I'm amazed. After reading from online blog that he actually became a DJ at his friends newly opened club at Daegu, so I really wanted to see how talented he is. And kudos...he's not good...but really very very very good!!!During the DJing period, at that very moment, I thought I was in a club. Wahaha!!!Clubbing in my winter's clothing.

Here comes the most long awaiting moment. Everyone must have curious to know how he looks like back then? Yes, in 1987, 4 Aug, this boy named JKS was born! The video made by him shown all his baby pic and everything happening in 1980's. After the video, followed by 1980's dance, izzit a little like agogo? But not really. 3 dancers including him in bright blink blink coat dancing 1980's dance! wahaha.....Great performance!

After that followed by him singing alone, and wearing glasses! wow...our JKS is always good looking even in glasses huh? After 1980's of course 1990's right? It's showing the videos of him back then in 1990's.Well, our JKS is super duper chubby back then. Or should I said fat? (opps...). It's okay, we all went through our toughest time in life. From fat to thin, thin to fat and it goes on and on...but he's still very cute little boy!The whole planning of program was really fantastic. Next was 1990's dance and apparel that gave you YES!it feels like you're back to 1990's. Our JKS wore this cute hanging trousers (not sure what you call that, nvm...we shall look at the pic) and he danced and acted cutely with his glove dance! Candy dance, OMG....can feel my soul already flew up to heaven...am i still alive?

Year 2k, our JKS is already a grown up minam!!This time he came out with white singlet, he's super duper hot and I think everyone can feel the whole hall is burning hot, although is actually very cold since outside only 1 degree celcius. Huaaaaaaa......He danced and walked to the centre of the stage, guess what? He splashed 2 bottles of water towars the lucky eels! and pour the water on himself!very sexy and I can see his Burberry underwear! (only the brand okay since he lifted up his singlet- not exposing the whole underwear lah of course)!I love it when he sang Heartbeat by 2pm....sexy...sexy....

Very very long program line up huh?Okay...we all know the FM was really fun. But behind the fun that all the eels were having, what happen to JKS and all the working team? Yes!They're working and rehearsing really hard. JKS don't even have time to take his meal properly. I can see him dancing with hotdog in his hand, eating while practicing....(you can see this in the video but sorry I don't have the video...), really hard on our JKS hor...can really feel he's perfectionist and put all his infinity effort toward a successful FM.

Okay...this is what I always hated and I knew that I won't have any chance to participate.The youngest and the oldest fan will get some gift from JKS. What's the gift I'm not very sure coz I was sitting too far from the stage. But i knew the youngest eel is 1 year old. Oldest 62 years old!!!Argh...I'm so jealous!Angst! Haha...okay I think this time he came out with the hairstyles i love. All the hairs were tied up like in Minami Shineyo?I love his sideburns!

What's happening now? Are you ready to game? Ya!It's game session! The last 5 persons will be chosen to go up to stage and upclose with him. And again, I hated this the most, coz I've never ever stand a chance to be so upclose. All of us were asked to stand up and play "Follow what I do".

When the music stops, you must show the same expression as what JKS is doing. Okay...as usual, after few rounds, I sat down. The final are all the small kids, but JKS said the kids will not be able to stand his special gift so asked the kid's mom to come up to stage instead! Lucky ahjumma! I'm so jealous....*_*.What the final gift? 1st ahjumma got a hug from him and he carried her and swung her around. 2nd ahjumma got his hug and he piggied back her!!!! 3rd, 4th and 5th just got a hug but 5th one took advantage by kissing his hand.

I think our JKS got a shocked in his life coz he was pulling his hand away! (seems tat he gonna scream....). OMG OMG...what happen now? JKS suddenly appear from another side of the door and sang Still As Ever to this another ahjumma! And gave her a bouquet of red roses!And who is this ahjumma btw? And she was seated on a chair in the middle of the stage!!!I sooooo going to faint. Lucky I got no history of heart attack. The translator did not translate into mandarin and I don't know what's going on...Ugh Ugh!!He too sweet, I'll just say I do if he's proposing to me. haha!!! dream dream dream....

It seems that this is coming to an end....oh no no no, encore encore I don't want it to end. JKS is giving his Thank You speech to everyone. He never thought he'll have the chance to organize a FM with about 3k fans (including foreign fans)...Think his tears gonna come out anytime soon...But he said no no...cannot cry. haha!

Heart warming song....Can You Hear It? Of course can hear coz you're my JKS!!Opps, must control, cannot overreact coz he dislikes overacting person. And I think he doesn't like wild girls?Actually I'm holding back my tears as well coz it was so good that I don't want it to end!!NoooooooooooooooOOOOOOOooooooooo!

Urm....i thought it has ended and that was the last song? But no! he suddenly appeared in the middle of nowhere, at the fans seating on 2nd floors, situation became chaotic that his managers, securities surrounded him when he sang and moving around. All the fans rushed over to where he was and...it seems that it's end of the world and everyone rushing to a space ship to save their life. He did not come over to my side...sob sob....because, before he even can walk up, all the fans rushed down from their seats and flew towards him. I think his management company must have a shocked.

It seems that jap fans will respect their idol more and will not do such things. And I can see fans pulling his hands and he's trying to do it away with them by avoiding it.... I always believe, if you're overacting, people will try to stay away from you. So all the eels....be more rationale. Although I know all of us can't control our hand and legs when we see him. But please...self control if you want to be loved by him. Haha!

Last but not least....it the final video and the FM is coming to and end....coz it's near 1700 hrs. Final video shown is the working and preparation for the FM....Our JKS was too touched and I think stressed over this FM too, coz he wants to give everyone the best. He's trying to control his tears but they're stubborn!So....his managers and crew rushed him to back stage....I think everyone including himself really satisfied with the FM.

Altho I'm seated so far away, but I'm so lucky to be in the hall, enjoying his life performance ^_^...

*Note: Thanks to Jee-Eun (my Korea friend, also 1 of the Cri-J) who provided me with all JKS's pic at the FM. We're not allowed to take any pic/video during FM session.Also, I might have left out something in the program line up since it's a loooong 3 hours FM. Hopefully I can get some clips from youtube to upload so that everyone can see the flow better :). Photos uploaded by sequence of program...but I do not have full pics/video to be shared. Sorry.....

~1st traffic light at hometown! 21 Dec 2009~

2009-12-22T19:37:00.001+08:00

~*1st traffic light at hometown! 21 Dec 2009*~

*The roundabout was removed and replaced with a traffic light! The traffic light opening ceremony was at 2pm and I was so obsessed about it. That evening itself, i forced my dad to go cycling with me and the routes that we took must must must passed by the traffic light!

Well, not that I've never cross a traffic light before, I've been driving for the past 10 years but it just surprised me that there'll ever be a traffic light in my small home sweet hometown. haha!!It was really fun looking at people crossing the traffic light. It was quite chaotic at first coz peoples were unsure which to look at to cross. Am I supposed to look at the round green light to turn or wait for the green arrow?

I think almost everyone got confused at first but eventually went thru the correct way after few times of training...I can't really remember when was the last I cycled around the town but it was really fun get to cycle again...

I remembered I got my first bicycle from my dad when I was in Primary 4 and it cost RM165 and the brand- Rally. I've been bugging my dad for a bicycle back then and he promised to buy me if I get No.1 in my class continuously for that year. When I talked bout it recently, he couldn't remember but it's okay. That time, I was soooo happy cycling around.

When I moved on to secondary skool, I wanted a motorbike instead. And my dad told me he would buy me if I get at least 5As in my PMR examination. But too bad, due to my playful behavior, I only got 4As. However, i still get my motorbike which my dad initially bought for my mom and it became mine after she had an accident when she rode it for the first time!It was a red Suzuki scooter with plat number QRA5587.

Later, I managed to enter the uni and joined the corporate world in year 2004. And again, my dad bought me a car! It's a Korean made car, Hyundai Accent and I love the plat number- WLX541. I was so happy when I got the car on 26 June 2004 and busy driving round and around and round to familiarized myself with the car as well as the road in KL.

Thinking back, I got everything from my dad ever since birth. I'm so lucky that I'm born to be loved. My dad has been driving his old laopok Proton Wira since 1997. I would like to get him a new car with my own salary. Unless there's a covered place to park, if not getting a new car and let it be under sun whole day will be a waste. Pity the car.....

From a bicycle, motorbike to car, my dad has spent a lot on me just on this 3 items. And me, what have have I done for him which can be considered as a great memory for him?*

~开心吗 10 July 2009?~

2009-07-18T21:15:00.002+08:00

~*开心吗 10 July 2009?*~

*Thank you God for everything that you've done for me! I got a special mid year salary adjustment!Wohooo!!It's equivalent to a promotion salary although not promoted. But it's still better than nothing. Getting a salary increment and adjustment during cost cutting/recession period is really miracle already!

At least I feel I'm a little appreciated ^_^.*

~To Every Special Woman That I Know...~

2009-06-26T22:06:00.006+08:00

~*To Every Special Woman That I Know...*~

*Maya Angelou said this:

'I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.'

'I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.'

'I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.'

'I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as 'making a life'

'I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.'

'I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back..'

'I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.'

'I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.'

'I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.'

'I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.'

'I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.'*

~回不了头...30 Apr 2009~

2009-05-01T20:41:00.004+08:00

~*回不了头...30 Apr 2009*~

*在我大学的第一年, 我有四位很要好的朋友.在我第二年到毕业, 我们必须分开因为读不一样的科系. 但是无时无刻我们都会报此联络. 我昨天终于跟其中一个见面了还一起吃晚餐. 还提到以前好笑又很怀念的事情. 还有提到了以前的同班同学.

我们提的一个又一个, 然后就提到了其中一个男孩她就很惊讶地说 '你不知道他自杀了吗? 刚刚前几个月的事而已'.我突然不知道要说什么，也不知道该所什么.

我每次都觉得，自杀的人真的有很大的勇气. 不顾一切，就这样离开. 这种想法，难道是对的吗? 我...办不到...听到了这个消息，我...感觉到很失落. 虽然不是很要好的朋友, 必经我们曾经是同班同学.

虽然我们都在不同的校园，他有时会发短信打电话来问候. 毕业之后他还是一样的继续发短信打电话给我还常提起我曾经煮过快熟面 + 香肠给他吃. 虽然只是一次，但他每次都会提起. 我没跟他说过我离开了马来西亚到新加坡工作，所以就这样失去联络了. 毕业过后的四年我们都没见过面. 忙碌的我，每次都说 '对不起，现在很忙不能跟你聊天'.

一直到昨天，我才想起这位朋友可是他在 21 Oct 2008 以离开人间了...所以说啊，我不想再后悔多一次. 我要继续做到最好最棒不想再有任何的遗憾! Fighting!*

~天冷就回来~

2009-04-25T00:30:00.002+08:00

~*天冷就回来*~

*这五个字是我最近在报账上看见的.成为一个很独立的小女孩，我在十七岁那年就离开家乡到西马去读大学.毕业过后，还是留在西马工作.我们都知道自己的家是避风港但像我这样的一个人，可以那么容易就说 '我累了，想回家' 吗?

每个父母都很希望儿女永远陪在身边吧? 我...很爱我家人可是在这个时候还无能为力把他们留在我身边或把我自己留在他们身边. 我必须工作. 虽然很多时间都会觉得很累, 很失落还是没办法对自己说 '天真的变冷了, 应该可以放弃一切然后回家去吧!'*

~Secretary Week 14 Apr 2009~

2009-04-18T19:29:00.001+08:00

~*Secretary Week 14 Apr 2009*~

*Yeah! It's Secretary Week. A week for everyone to appreciate and showing gratitude towards their's secretary (it's admin assistant for our team).

Brought our cute and friendly AA to Swensens and had this 1-for-1 lunch treat. It only took like less than 10 mins to get our lunch to be delivered but sadly to say that, we waited for nearly 40 mins to pay our bill!

When there's such an offer, normally you will have to wait longer in the queue before you get a seat (not allowed to do reservation during promotion period). And wait a longer time to get your order to be delivered. Suprisingly, everything were quite fast except the payment part....

Best thing was my bill had to be cancelled and re-keyed-in due to wrong calculation by the staff. Well, aside from this their service is quite excellent.*

~It's Easter!~

2009-04-12T19:26:00.004+08:00

~*It's Easter!*~

*He's Alive! He has risen, just as he said....
Do not be afraid...
Matthew 28:1-10*

~Remembering Good Friday~

2009-04-10T22:22:00.003+08:00

~*Remembering Good Friday*~

*不知不觉，心情变得很低落...
我...哭了...
Matthew 27:1-26*

~HearT BroKen...~

2009-02-24T22:32:00.002+08:00

~*HearT BroKen...*~

Today, my colleague was playing with my new beloved phone and did not handle it with full care. The phone actually flew and bounced few times before it landed on the floor. Altho it was a carpeted floor, no scratches but....the slider became looseeeeeeeeee.....I so wanna cry, think I goin to hide in the shower room and cry for the next one week.

There's no remorseful feeling, no sorry at all....My heart was so so so pain but no point crying over spilled milk....

Even Sony Ericsson service centre said they cant do anything to help me...it just doesnt feel the same anymore....

~Valentine's Day? 14 Feb 2009~

2009-02-15T22:37:00.003+08:00

~*Valentine's Day? 14 Feb 2009*~

*Valentine's day to me:

V- Vexed
A- Alone is good?
L- Less stress and burden
E- Everything is expensive
N- Need to waste money again
T- Thanks God I'm alone
I- I do not want to torture myself
N- Need to be like 'sardin'
E- Everywhere is packed!*

~Article by Lee Kuan Yew's Daughter~

2009-02-10T21:03:00.001+08:00

~*Article by Lee Kuan Yew's Daughter*~

In 2007, in an end-of-year message to the staff of the National Neuroscience Institute, I wrote: 'Whilst boom time in the public sector is never as booming as in the private sector, let us not forget that boom time is eventually followed by slump time. Slump time in the public sector is always less painful compared to the private sector.' Slump time has arrived with a bang.

While I worry about the poorer Singaporeans who will be hit hard, perhaps this recession has come at an opportune time for many of us. It will give us an incentive to reconsider our priorities in life.

Decades of the good life have made us soft. The wealthy especially, but also the middle class in Singapore, have had it so good for so long, what they once considered luxuries, they now think of as necessities.

A mobile phone, for instance, is now a statement about who you are, not just a piece of equipment for communication. Hence many people buy the latest model though their existing mobile phones are still in perfect working order.

A Mercedes-Benz is no longer adequate as a status symbol. For millionaires who wish to show the world they have taste, a Ferrari or a Porsche is deemed more appropriate. The same attitude influences the choice of attire and accessories. I still find it hard to believe that there are people carrying handbags that cost more than thrice the monthly income of a bus driver, and many more times that of the foreign worker labouring in the hot sun, risking his life to construct luxury condominiums he will never have a chance to live in.
The media encourages and amplifies this ostentatious consumption. Perhaps it is good to encourage people to spend more because this will prevent the recession from getting worse. I am not an economist, but wasn't that the root cause of the current crisis - Americans spending more than they could afford to?

I am not a particularly spiritual person. I don't believe in the supernatural and I don't think I have a soul that will survive my death. But as I view the crass materialism around me, I am reminded of what my mother once told me: 'Suffering and deprivation is good for the soul.'
My family is not poor, but we have been brought up to be frugal. My parents and I live in the same house that my paternal grandparents and their children moved into after World War II in 1945. It is a big house by today's standards, but it is simple - in fact, almost to the point of being shabby.

Those who see it for the first time are astonished that Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew's home is so humble. But it is a comfortable house, a home we have got used to. Though it does look shabby compared to the new mansions on our street, we are not bothered by the comparison.

Most of the world and much of Singapore will lament the economic downturn. We have been told to tighten our belts. There will undoubtedly be suffering, which we must try our best to ameliorate.

But I personally think the hard times will hold a timely lesson for many Singaporeans, especially those born after 1970 who have never lived through difficult times. No matter how poor you are in Singapore , the authorities and social groups do try to ensure you have shelter and food. Nobody starves in Singapore. Many of those who are currently living in mansions and enjoying a luxurious lifestyle will probably still be able to do so, even if they might have to downgrade from wines costing $20,000 a bottle to $10,000 a bottle. They would hardly notice the difference.
Being wealthy is not a sin. It cannot be in a capitalist market economy. Enjoying the fruits of one's own labour is one's prerogative and I have no right to chastise those who choose to live luxuriously.

But if one is blinded by materialism, there would be no end to wanting and hankering. After the Ferrari, what next? An Aston Martin? After the Hermes Birkin handbag, what can one upgrade to? Neither an Aston Martin nor an Hermes Birkin can make us truly happy or contented. They are like dust, a fog obscuring the true meaning of life, and can be blown away in the twinkling of an eye.

When the end approaches and we look back on our lives, will we regret the latest mobile phone or luxury car that we did not acquire? Or would we prefer to die at peace with ourselves, knowing that we have lived lives filled with love, friendship and goodwill, that we have helped some of our fellow voyagers along the way and that we have tried our best to leave this world a slightly better place than how we found it? We know which is the correct choice - and it is within our power to make that choice.
In this new year, burdened as it is with the problems of the year that has just ended, let us again try to choose wisely. To a considerable degree, our happiness is within our own control, and we should not follow the herd blindly..

The writer is director of the National Neuroscience Institute.

~Welcome W595 'n' bubYe Ice-cream...~

2009-02-08T14:47:00.004+08:00

~*Welcome W595 'n' bubYe Ice-cream...*~

*Guess what? I've traded in my pink ice-cream phone and got a new SE W595 in Peachy Pink! Yeah, by the way, it's the new color! Finally i managed to get the phone that i've been longed for. Still felt sorry for my ice-cream, it's really hard to say sorry and good bye... o(-.-)o...

And what's more? Wohooo~! I have my all my SONY stuffs in pink! Don't jealous hor...*

~Ugh...~

2009-01-13T22:58:00.001+08:00

~*Ugh...*~

*PrInCeSs is vexed and exasperated!!*

~AcupunCtuRe 10 Jan 2009~

2009-01-11T23:22:00.002+08:00

~*AcupunCtuRe 10 Jan 2009*~

*Recently not feeling really well. Maybe too exhausted, I'm swamped! My very first acupuncture! Waited for almost an hour for my turn, although I've already had an appointment. The needles were small but when it poke on you, Ouuchhh! pain lor!

Feeling a bit better after the treatment, hopefully I'll be a healthy princess again soon...*

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2008-12-10T22:58:00.003+08:00

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*I'm flabbergasted! How can I refrain myself from being involved in the hoo-ha dramatic family??! I can't...because...I'm part of the drama...*

Quote of the day: We can't do anything, but God can do something. PUSH...Pray Until Something Happen*

~我的冰淇淋! 1 Dec 2008~

2008-12-07T23:26:00.004+08:00

~*我的冰淇淋! 1 Dec 2008*~

*漂亮吗?我的新电话噢!好开心呀，终于买到了粉红色的冰淇淋电话.是 LG 的啊.如果想知道model number 的话, 就是 LG KF350.没看过吧!hohoho....!*

~三姑，生日快乐! 29 Nov 2008~

2008-12-06T17:32:00.011+08:00

~*三姑，生日快乐! 29 Nov 2008*~

*Fried Roasted pork with garlic*

*yam ring*

*Nyonya curry fish head!*

*我三姑的生日其实是28 Nov 2008.因为那天是星期五，没办法庆祝所以在星期六帮他庆祝咯!我买了一粒Fresh Cream Fruit Cake送她，蛮好吃的哦!Uncle 带我们全家人去吃大餐!Yummy yummy，都是我爱吃的!每个人都说我是大胃王.umm...我是吗?*

~只做个身份证要那么久吗???~

2008-11-27T22:09:00.006+08:00

~*只做个身份证要那么久吗???*~

*8.30am: Left house and walked to Marsiling MRT station. Why this station? Coz it's the nearest station la...

9.30am: Reached Lavender MRT station and that is where ICA building is located at lor...and YES, the train trip damn long!an hour....

9.50am: Got my queue no. through the Self Service Kiosk Machine. Very efficient ya, just need to scan the bar code on the PR approval letter.

9:53am: Queue no. appeared with my e-booking appointment time, 11.00am. What is e-booking? YES!another advancement...Applicant can actually logon to ICA website and select available appointment time before proceed to ICA. The main purpose supposed to get the applicant to come at their appointment time to avoid unnecessary waiting time.

10.40am: Ding dong!YES!Finally it was my turn. Submitted all the required documentation and not to forget, payment of $150 for entry and re-entry permit!OMG...still need to queue for my turn to make IC!I thought it was done!

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12.00pm: I became very anxious and impatient already. What the hell keeping them so long?OMG, I just noticed, from 5 counters only 2 were opened! And guess what? during lunch time only 1 opened. Must be kidding me.

12.30pm: Walked over to the counter and asked when will be my turn, I've been waiting for more than an hour already. The lady just asked me to wait...okay lor...wait...

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2.00pm: What the heck? Not my turn yet??? Got to knowthat even people with 10.ooam appointment are still at the waiting area.

2.45pm: Really couldn't take it anymore!What's the use of the e-booking appointment if I still need to wait for sooooOOOOoo long??!Damn it!Went to the counter and rush the person in charge.

3.00pm: Finally it was my turn, oh gosh! Took a fast 15 mins for thumb print, choose chinese name and another $50 payment for the IC. Total spent for the day = $200..sob sob...

3.15pm: Ran down to the cab area, fetch a cab and rush the uncle to drive as fast as possible back to Jurong East, my office lar! And the uncle very keng, said will reach in 15 mins really reached in 15 mins! Luckily I managed to arrive in time for team KPI meeting with my GM! Phew....

It was really a tiring and suffocating day! Nearly throw tantrum but don't know where and who to throw at. Haha...!*

~火锅火锅我爱你! 21 Nov & 22 Nov 2008~

2008-11-23T21:49:00.005+08:00

~*火锅火锅我爱你! 21 Nov & 22 Nov 2008*~

*homemade yummilicious steamboat...*

*home prepared steamboat ingredients*

*鲜得来 steamboat at Bugis, whoaaaa, can finish or not?!*

*鲜得来ying yang pot with special duck soup & sichuan hot & spicy soup!*

*我啊...超爱吃火锅的一个人.为了庆祝新加坡政府批准了我的PR,一般同事和我姑姑一家人都准备了火锅给我吃！很感动噢...火锅火锅我爱你呀!

Quote of the day: Pray in Jesus name and you shall be given on what you need...*

~YaY!~

2008-11-20T21:48:00.003+08:00

~*YaY!*~

*WoHooo....my PR application has been approved!Received my letter from ICA today! o(^^)o.It only took less than a month for my application to be approved. So happy, yay!But still need to complete the formalities before getting confirmation on my PR status, need to do IC also!*

~DeViL HarDworKing Day!~

2008-09-05T23:10:00.002+08:00

~*DeViL HarDworKing Day!*~

*Apparently, today @ 5pm, it seems like my last day living on the earth. Waiting for justice and Lord Jesus to come and save me. It was actually my probationary review with a 'devil' which is my boss of course, who else?!

First and foremost, she started by showing me the review paper...with a tick on every category on my work performance. My eyes went down and down and down and ...STOP!There was a category which stated 'need improvement', the last choice of 3 choices (good, satisfied or need improvement). Guess what category is that? YES!the most important category, 'Quality of Work'. And...I pointed on the category and started to ask, 'can you please explain to me why my quality of work needs improvement?'. And the answer was...tadang!!!' Oh...it's because of some of your grammar mistake in your documentation, that's the only part that need improvement. I was like 'what the heck?You presented ALL my presentation slides and documentation to CMO, with almost 99.99999999% original work of mine and you said I need improvement?'. And because of that mini tiny mistake my overall performance of work 'need improvement'???I think the bitch trying to act smart but looks like a dumb ass to me.I asked her 'if just a tiny mistake, it should be good performance and with a comment indicate at the side 'to improve on grammar'. I think this might be her first time doing a probationary review for her staff?I am not saying that I am a great employee, but my quality of work was never been doubt.

And most sensitive thing!talking about my nationality!!When I enquired about salary increment after probation, she can just shoot out very quickly 'I think I cannot help on this'. If she as my SM cannot help, then I need a SM for what?Useless bitch!She continued, 'you know, local companies here preferred to hire foreigners because the salary is lower'. What the heck? A SM telling her employee without going through her brain, I think she is using her asshole to think and speak.The kiasu me quickly asked her, 'so do you mean after I get my PR I'll be on par with Sporean and get higher salary?' Suddenly there was an awkward silence and her face turn blue,purple or whatsoever colour. I just knew that is not a normal face colour lah! Haha!!I am so proud of myself, told her off right on her face!Nah!See who is cili padi in the company. Trying to be funny with me? I can be more funny...

When asking her about her career plan for me, telling me all sort of bullshit...WooooOOo...I think she was the one going under probationary review and not me. Kena questioned until face turned green, shit turned pink!Kakakaka!!!!She also cannot give me any answer. I think I have to become her superior to guide her lah!ohohoooo....

Anyway...she stepped on a wrong person's tail...My nickname is little princess, and I think I am, but when people trying to be funny with me, I'll become little witch to traumatize the bitch!

The devil trying to make my life miserable today. Yes, I admit that I was full of anger, but a little while only lah. Too bad the devil has failed the mission..So sorry!!Because I have god with me, giving me faith and giving me the best!Let's see what is the next plan that the devil is looking into to bring my life down again? Dear devil, please please try your very very hard!Cause it's gonna be very tough!I made it because my boss felt threaten on my capability that I will supersede her one day!*

woRk liFe 啊...

2008-08-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

*woRk liFe 啊...*

*What had I got myself into?Today finally I experience the real finger pointing and war between bosses from different department. Really political...I wonder what I had got myself into. Without realizing I had been drag into the political war as well...

So from today onwards, everything that has been said by anyone will need to be jotted down to avoid so called 'miscom' (well, just to cover own ass by saying that).

It was just a really unexpected circumstances, things being pushed around and just pointing at each other to find out whose mistake is that. Why don't the precious time is used to think of better things to do for the company? Rather than wasting the time blaming each other for the mistake?I have grown up to another phase of life again today...*

~trYing haRd...~

2008-07-31T22:08:00.005+08:00

~*trYing haRd...*~

*Suddenly just felt really tired with what is happening around me. FAMILY? What is FAMILY?

F- Father
A- And
M- Mother
I- I
L- Love
Y- You

LOVE? What is LOVE? I am now a totally feelingless person. I cannot feel, no more feeling towards what's happening around.

Parents that don't even LOVE each other and trying to teach the children to LOVE their partners. If there's no LOVE in the FAMILY, how can we teach others how to LOVE others?

Why 2 persons that don't have mutual trust and love can get married and after 20 years of marriage, what came out of their mouth is 'I have suffered for the past 20 years and I never had a good marriage life with my partners. Never before, Not now, and impossible for future'.

To ALL the parents in the world, you are not the only one suffering!Do you think you are the only one suffering? How sure are you, your partner is not, your children is not??!Do you think your children is real dumb and don't even know what is happening in the FAMILY? It's pathetic...

Have you ever came across when tears are pouring down heavily onto your face, but your heart seems feelingless and stop beating?

Quote of the day: Even the whole world let you down, you must know to love yourself the most!*

~人和人之间...~

2008-07-26T13:18:00.004+08:00

~*人和人之间...*~

*人。。。和动物之间都可以彼此珍惜。。。为什么人和人之间要彼此珍惜会那么困难的一件事呢？如果没有了回忆，是不是可以从头开始一个新生活，然后会开始珍惜对方，爱护对方，开心幸福的往前走？*

~最幸福的人?~

2008-07-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

~*最幸福的人?~*

*最幸福的人，往往是拥有最多选择的人。。。我，就是其中一个！在每个人的眼中我都很幸福。我是很幸福，可是为什么我就是感受不到呢？是不是因为每一次都要求完美？要求自己做到最好最棒？我。。。好累好累。。。*

~ThiS is d re@L ReaL reAL neW beGinniNg~

2008-06-02T19:32:00.002+08:00

~*ThiS is d re@L ReaL reAL neW beGinniNg*~

*2 more days will be my AM last day. This is the real real new beginning of my life at work. There's no one to look up to for advice anymore.

My GM called the whole prepaid team (3 person's including my AM) to announce that there'll be a new SM will be coming in end of the month to lead the team. We need to prepare the necessary to brief her on what each of us will be doing. Well...left me and another coll, she will be handling acquisition and promotion. While I will be doing top-up, usage and retention...

I pray that HE will gives me more wisdom and smarter brain to think what to be done and secure my own position at work. There will be no one infront of us guiding and leaving us anymore.

It's a new beginning and higher responsibilty. Can I go through it? 3 more months to end my probation. GOD, guide me through and lead me through. I need to know every single thing in 6 months time and be an expert by then...*

~my FirSt huGe proMo launCh 16 May 2008~

2008-05-17T14:50:00.008+08:00

~*my FirSt huGe proMo launCh 16 May 2008*~

*Yahoo...I really feel happy and great!why? It's because a big and huge promo that was only passed to me for 2 weeks, I did it from head to toe and launched it successfully. Had never been so great before, but this was really a pain experience, worrying about the testing, worrying about the communications collaterals, worrying bout this and that....made me INsoMnia...which I nearly forgot how it feel ever since I move to Sg...

Everyone gotta be patient with me...my post this time will be quite a long one....

I had a very bad time for the past 2 weeks...being scolded by my AM, being treated sarcasticly by colleagues from other department. Somehow you'll just forgot to inform some people on a new thing you gonna launch...like me, a newbie...if I am an old bie, of course I'll know what I am supposed to do from east to west already lar...still need to remind me meh?!but too bad...here...people don't care whether you are new or old, what they know is, you need to get everything RIGHT! the 3 Ws (what,where,who)!

And I actually had a totally sleepless night 3 days before the promo, was busy doing to UAT to ensure all the neccessary scenarios covered...Here...it is really different. Even every users that did the test, PASSED it, but when something goes wrong, the product owner has to be responsible and take all the shit. Everyone else will just hands off and says, 'product owner SUPPOSED to make sure everything is okay although the other OKED it...I was like ?????But the truth is just so cruel...

Leaving previous company and joining the company I am in now was really a big and tough decision...but how much can you continue gaining and learning by staying in the same company for 4 years? Well...I thought I will regret when i left. But my x boss once told me, 'DO NOT regret once you have decided it. It you worried that you might regret, then do not make the decision', which i totally agreed with what he said...

Life in previous company was stress but fruitful, but life in the new company is not well-heeled...it is few times more stress but also few time more fruitful compared to my x company. Both are equally fantastic, but of course with fast pace environment in sg, life is tougher. People who just given a small task in my x company has been always complaining like hell, think of it, I will just give a grin, because these people have not really seen what is the real hell yet.

I use to complaint a lot in my previous position in the previous company. Why? because tons of things to be done. Well, it's not better off here. Although life is tough in Msia, but which what I am in and with now, flashing back the memories, life is actually very very very relax back in Msia.

Here, our small team which consists of 3 peoples, need to do 50 peoples work in my x company. So, dear people in 'D', you guys actually are really blessed. With the number of tasks, pressure and responsibilities, if you could not even take it in 'D',you are not even qualified to step in to the world in Sg. I may look very cheerful, I am trying to be one, but moving here is a big decision, not everyone can take it. Especially when you already think that your current job and boss very tough.

I am struggling here...and still trying to be on par. The difference with people in Msia and Sg...In Msia we often noticed, even not competitive people but with their glib tongue they can survive, we have seen a lot...but here in Sg, for the past 1 and half months here, I could not find any not competitive people, in other word, 'paria' people. I could not detect any.

Msian always think that Sporean are kiasus people. As for my own opinion, people in my company are not kiasu by competing with others. There are competing with themselves. To them, no matter how hard it is, they must give the best. This is not to please the bosses or anyone, they just feel great when they can produce a great achievement. I am not making a generalization statement, maybe its God blessing that I am placed in a place that have a lot of people that willing to guide me and teach me and want me to be competitive as well..not to be the best, but at least same par as the others.

I am in great pressure now....yesterday after the promo launch, I was asking my AM how was my performance, and she told me you did really great job!!I didn't expect a new staff to join the team and don't know head to toe, manage to settle everything by yourself!And she said she has very high expectation on me. And she also told me, my another colleague actually told her that she put too much pressure on me. She said 'YES', because I am a fast learner, she is taking this advantage on me. To train me everything by action,so that I know to do as a product owner....

Sometimes, I missed the time in 'D'. Even how tough the situation is, my great boss will sure guide and assure that everything will be okay. Provided a lot of guidance and learning path. But here, there is no time to be guided and learn. Everything is great competition between the other 2 competitors. Everything must be fast. There's no time for me to even think, 'erm...how to do this ya...'. Is more to, okay..I know what to do...

Quote of the day: Money is everything....yet having a life is more than everything...*

~第一份薪水，第一件新衣。。。9 May 2008~

2008-05-10T00:25:00.003+08:00

~*第一份薪水，第一件新衣。。。9 May 2008*~

*这是我第一份薪水买的衣服。漂亮吗？其实，我自己快忘了最后一次买新衣是在什么时候。不知道为什么，但我用了这第一份薪水买衣服是感觉不太一样。跟平常买衣服的感觉比较起来，这次感觉到很快乐。辛苦工作一个月后领到的薪水，然后给自己买了一件很漂亮的衣服。。。我。。。从以前到现在，不曾有这种满足感！

~五月天回到地球表面演唱会 26 Apr 2008~

2008-04-27T21:57:00.005+08:00

~*五月天回到地球表面演唱会 26 Apr 2008*~

*这是我第二次看演唱会。第一次是在马来西亚，就是看王力宏的演唱会。我的第一次，觉得王力宏很棒，但看了五月天的演唱会过后呢，力宏的真是没什么得hu ha。。。

五月天。。。没想到他们的live concert真的真的很了不起。我跟一般同事到新加坡indoor stadium看了他们的演唱会，free ticket噢！因为我们公司是其中一位sponsor。如果没免费的票，一定要买票去看！太值得了！

我。。。有时都会听他们的歌。不过，我不是第一号粉丝。原来，他们的live比录音更棒！我开始爱上他们每一首歌，还开始爱上他们没一个团圆。每一个粉丝，站了三个小时，都没坐过。我很久没那么开心了。我最喜欢的歌就是 ‘最重要的小事’。。。还好有人upload去youtube.因为我没带相机。来吧！一起分享照片和youtube。。。

~1st paY sliP in $$$~

2008-04-25T19:25:00.002+08:00

~*1st paY sliP in $$$*~

*Haha...I got my 1st month pay slip today. Very excited!When I first got my pay slip from my 1st job, I wasn't as happy or as excited as today...

I shall work smarter to get paid more...although very tired, still need to go through the hard time because of $$$...*

~@ new Day new comPany 1 Apr 2008~

2008-04-03T21:14:00.008+08:00

~*@ new Day new comPany 1 Apr 2008*~

*8.15am: I reached my new office MobileOne Ltd at International Business Park, Singapore.

8.20am: Got my visitor pass from receptionist because my staff ID tag is not ready.

8.30am: Guess what??! The receptionist asks me to wait before HR people comes and get me because need to wait for another 2 newbies to arrive!

9.00am: What is this lar...the 2 newbies arrived but from Engineering department, not my department.

9.30am: Well...finally the HR guy is here! Did some introduction of the company, giving welcome gift and tour around the company.Hmm...almost similar like DiGi just that I will work on a desktop and have my own cubicle...no more free sitting...

11.00am: HR handled me over to my department secretary and took me to my seat. My boss gave me a very brief introduction and what am I supposed to do? He also like...okay...the other boss will brief me. I was like 'huh'?

12.00pm: Yehaaa...my lady GM took the team for lunch at these Thai Food restaurant, don't ask me where, I am new also so I don't know where it is.

2:00pm: Back to office and have a chat with my boss but he could not explain much because just took over the prepaid portfolio, need to wait for another boss to come to work tomorrow because he's on MC.

4.00pm: Already quite familiar with all the product and services offered. Tadang....!boss sent me and email to do a slides on latest products comparison between our company and the competitors.

7:00pm: Wabiang (new word that I learnt here), I thought newbie gets to go home early but I was wrong. 7.00pm only can leave office and it is my 1st day...*sob sob*...and my other team members still working very hard in the office as we have new things to launch next week...

8.30pm: When I reached home already half dead...like a dead small fish...kaka...it still felt like a dream to me as in a sudden I just change company, new colleagues, new place, new environment...*

~AnxiouS toMorrow...~

2008-03-31T16:49:00.004+08:00

~*AnxiouS toMorrow...*~

*Tomorrow will be my 1st day @ work...This morning my new company HR called up and asked me to bring a passport photo with white background to work tomorrow. Ar? because she said the one i submitted was in blue. They needed it in white...aiya...

And asking me, 'have you open your bank account?' I was like 'erk...which bank to open ya?' sound so dumbo. I think I'll open this coming weekend because I do not have enough S$! so smart of me coming in to work without changing my money...sob sob...*

~最后的一个gathering 19 Mar 2008...~

2008-03-21T15:17:00.003+08:00

~*最后的一个gathering 19 Mar 2008...*~

*我。。。要离开了。其实，伤心比开心的感觉比较多。我知道你们每一个都很用心跟我吃一顿很丰富的晚餐也很努力的给我一个忘不了的回忆。我。。。很感动虽然没表现出来。想哭但我哭不出来。

时间过了真快。。。没想到我真的真的要离开了。每天一起吃午饭又吃晚饭的你们，我。。。该所一声再见了。我们。。。还会保持那么好的友情吗？恐怕有点难了吧。。。但我相信我们每一都会珍惜这段友情。只是，每个人都很忙，又有自己的生活还有新朋友。。。

不管真么样，只希望有一天如果有人问你 ‘你认识她吗？’你会回答 ‘当然认识呀，她是我朋友啊！’这样，我就已经很满足了。。。*

~It's a reaLity noW i'm goiN to leave Msia...8 Mar 2008~

2008-03-10T14:17:00.005+08:00

~*It's a reaLity noW i'm goiN to leave Msia...8 Mar 2008*~

*Again...it's another nightmares travelling down to Sg in the midnight but no choice because my medical report is ready for collection and I need to pick up my Employment Pass (EP) from Ministry of Manpower= MOM.

Reached The Arcade @ 8.30am sharp to pick up the report which took me less than a minute. Very fast and efficient. Next, rush to MOM to get the queue number. When I reached there, I was like...'har'...There's about 60 peoples ahead of my queue number. Well...it's real efficient as I only waited for 20 minutes then it's my turn already.

Waseh...after submitted the medical report and my passport, I was requested to go back 2 hours later to collect the EP. Aiks...where to go lar...2 hours not 20 minutes leh...At 11.30am, I went back to get a queue number for EP collecting and nah...another 60 peoples ahead of me, but also took me 20 minutes to collect the EP and made a payment.

After MOM, rushed over to my cousin's sis place to put down some of my 'sampah-sarap' and rushed back to Msia. WHY? Well, because I had an important wedding dinner to attend at Mines Resort and Spa. Reached back home about 7.30pm, showered and fly car to the wedding. After the wedding fly car home again and back safely at 11.30pm. Phew...I can feel my bones started to split :P

A tiring journey and tiring day but of course...

Quote of the day: No pain no gain!*

~oN the way se@rching New chapTer iN liFe~

2008-03-02T17:56:00.003+08:00

~*oN the way Searching New chapTer iN liFe*~

*On 1 Mar 2008, 12.30am I took a bus from Pudu down to Sg. At first I was in a Konsortium Bus which is really cosy and comfy. Well, when I asked the bus driver whether the bus will take 1st link and stop at Woodlands or not, he suddenly replied, 'Bas ni berhenti kat Beach Road la amoi, kena tukar bus, nanti kita arrange...'.

So, I have been transferred to another bus which will go pass through Woodlands check point. Waseh...it is also a VIP seater but very small seat (although I'm small size lar). I prefer Konsortium Bus. Wargh!!

At 3.30am, we reached Woodlands check point. I was like 'huh, OMG!!So early then what I gonna do here?' Then...I sat at Woodlands Centre bus stop till 6am, because the 1st bus service started at 6am!...What I did for almost 3 hours there? Well well well...Looking at people passing by, but I think more people looking at me rather than I looking at them, especially all the taxi drivers uncle! Kuang kuang kuang....sien...

At 6am, the bus finally reached. I took the bus to Marsiling MRT station and took the MRT to Raffles Place. Waliao....the journey was 42 minutes, although Sg. is such a small tiny island. Phew...Then I reached too early where the Shenton Medical Centre (the place that I supposed to do my medical check up required by my new company M1) because they only start their business at 8.30am.

Ting! It's 8.30am! yippie yay yay...I thought the medical check up will take about 15-20 minutes but I was wrong. It took about an hour. First, fill in the form and take queue number. Next, need to fill in the bottle for urine test. Then went back to the sofa, sit down and wait. After that, went for blood test. Next, sit back and wait again. Later, went for eyes test and sit back at the sofa. Lepas tu, wait for doctor to check my blood pressure, breathing and etc. Finally, x-ray lung and yes...finally done...Wa biang, they killed my cells!the x-ray!

It was raining heavily in Sg. and I could not go anywhere. Lazy...after breakfast with my friend, I took MRT back to Marsiling, and here it goes.....another 42 minutes MRT journey! Took a nap at my cousin's sis place till about 5pm then I gotta leave to catch 7.30pm bus back to KL.

Argh!! I think this is the day I travelled the longest journey in life. From Marsiling MRT, I took MRT down to Lavender because I need to catch my bus at Beach Road...sob sob...Only 2 passengers travelling in the bus which is me and me and me and another guy and the bus driver. Reached back Pudu at 1.30am and reach back home at 2.30am. I can feel my bones started to ache!

Quote of the day: No pain no gain. Good things will come to people who waits...*

~GooD NewS~

2008-02-25T13:51:00.003+08:00

~*GooD NewS*~

*I called MOM today and got a reply with a "YES". Now it's time to bid good bye. I thought it will be easy but I am wrong. It's really a though and stress decision to be made but I still have to do this.

Whether this is a correct decision or not I'll leave it to HIM. I know he will always be with me and guide me towards the way that HE has planned for me...*

~TrouBle~

2008-02-19T13:43:00.002+08:00

~*TrouBle*~

*One rainy day, a mother went to pick up her little girl from school, thinking that the little girl will fear the lightning.

On the way, she saw her child smiling at the sky for every lightning. She asked her why she smiled.

The little girl said 'GOD is taking my photo, so I have to look good. That's why I smiled.' So smile when problems threaten you and don't fear anything.

GOD is always be with ME...*

~回想过去。。。~

2008-02-18T17:30:00.015+08:00

~*回想过去。。。*~

*昨天，我回乡了然后到我义母家拜个年。义母跟我说‘他’结婚了。我知道‘他’会结婚，很快就会结但没想到是那么快呀！回想过去。。。我跟‘他’本来就好好感情，但因为某些人眼红所以我们最后做不到朋友。

有时候，我想念‘他’。其实，我们都来之不同世界的人。‘他’每次说我是大学生，不向‘他’只是个乡下人。而对我来说，大学生或乡下人还不是个普通人。虽然我是怎么想啦但不是每个人都像我这样。还是会觉得有很大的距离。已经有四年了，没听到‘他’的消息也没碰过‘他’。我也没想过会在遇见‘他’。

就是在昨天，我义母突然跟我提到‘他’让我回想过去。不知不觉，我就拿起了手机，发个信息给‘他’一个朋友，跟他那‘他’的电话号码。不知不觉，我又拿起了手机发个信息给‘他’没想过也没期待‘他’会回信。最没想到的是‘他’竟然打了电话给我。。。

我以为我们会很陌生但我想的一切都是相反。不但不陌生还说了一大堆话。感觉很棒！好像找回自己曾经很重视的一个人。虽然‘他’结婚了我还是很开心因为我们可以做回朋友。’他‘终于愿意跟我说一声’嗨‘。*

~情人节快乐。。。~

2008-02-14T15:20:00.004+08:00

~*情人节快乐。。。*~

*情人节又到了。不知道从及时开始，情人节对我来说只是一个很普通的节日。没特别的感觉没很开心的感觉。长话短说，就是根本一点感觉都没有！是因为年龄的关系呢还是我对感情的看法呢，自己也不太清楚。

看到很多J.CO DONUT 的照片吧！是我们的老板买来请我们吃的，他说，甜甜的donut,就希望每个人今天会有甜甜蜜蜜的约会。

约会？为什么要选在那么多人出去庆祝的时候来一起庆祝呢？又要traffic jam,又没parking,餐馆又那么多人。好好的心情都会便很复杂。Haiz。。。应该是我不会在欣赏这些了吧。Anyway，还是要祝大家情人节快乐。。。

Quote of the day: 相爱的人不一定能在一起，在一起的人不一定会幸福！*

~我家的团圆饭~

2008-02-11T16:45:00.005+08:00

~*我家的团圆饭 6 Feb 2008*~

*我妈妈每次都会煮每个人最爱吃的菜。大家唯一可以坐在一起吃饭的时候就是这时候，每年只有一次的团圆饭。从小到大，我们一家人都没有一起吃早，午或晚饭。理由是，每个人都很忙。回家的时间不一样所以没办法一起吃。

我开始觉得一起吃团圆饭的时间越来越少了。我们到底还有多少年能够一起用餐呢？我，我妹，我弟都在西马念书或工作。如果将来我们其中一个不能请假，就很难有机会一起吃团圆饭了。

对我来说，可以一起吃饭，虽然只有一年一次已经是很幸福的事了。还有很多人在这世界上因为某某的原因不能集合在一起。但是很多时候都觉得爸爸和妈妈在一起的时候都会很假。装很开心的样子然后当我们每个人离开家里飞回西马时，他们又开始很多花样了。

想到这些，真的不想长大永远做个小宝宝。因为小宝宝只会被疼爱。不需要看到听到自己不想知道的事情可是又不能改变事实。只好要忍耐下去。。。*

~Looking Back...*~

2008-01-31T19:54:00.001+08:00

~*Looking Back...*~

*Wo...I am stucked between now and future. I finally received the documents I have been waiting for but yet, I need an approved "pass" to allow me to proceed for future.In dilemma,what should I do, when to do and do and do and do what?GOD, I have faith in YOU. I trust YOU that YOU will guide me to the way and place I should be.

I need to start a new life at a new place. Leave behind all the sweet,bitter,sad,happy memories. Memories, no matter how hard you wanted to forget or letting it go, but the reality it is still your memories.

How I wish I could forget all the unhappiness and only keep the happy and blissful moment. At least when I look back next time, I will smile instead of weep. But, the reality is not as such. Although I have been through the time that I really lost myself, GOD still keep HIS promises and love me as how HE loves his other children.

I felt re-born and transformed and changed and have totally a new life after a big hu-ha happened in my life. When once upon a time I thought I need "you" very badly, but looking back now, I actually live much better and I can live by myself and do not need to be dependent. Thanks to "you" that letting me know that I will have a better future without "you" and I do not need "you" anymore. If time could turn back, I will dare to say that I NEED "YOU" but since I can't turn back time, I can loudly and proudly tell the world that Sorry, I need "you" once upon a time but I do not need "you" anymore now...As what "you" ever said I will know how to handle relationship better after this...and YES I do...

Time passed real fast and I am a grown up little girl now. I may still look like a little girl, and "you" may think I am still myself that you know in the past.BUT...sorry, my heart became as hard as stone now and I live for my family, my friends and myself and I am still living because of GOD's love...

I pray and wish "you" all the best in your future undertakings...

Quote of the day: Being forgotten is really hurt, but being remembered doesn't mean life will be better...*

~H@ppy DaY~

2008-01-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

~* HaPPy DaY*~

*I received a call this morning at 9.25am. A very important call that I have been waiting for since last week. Mixture of feelings....speechless, happy,nervous ahah, conclusion, I am very happy and feel blessed. I know HE has HIS plans for me and I just have to follow him. I know HE will guide me to go through all the obstacles and provide the best for me. HE will not burden me with a burden that I can't carry on my own. HE will carry for me and always be with me. GOD loves sweet girl like ME!*

~下乡团，团圆饭 26 Jan 2008~

2008-01-27T20:35:00.000+08:00

~*下乡团，团圆饭 26 Jan 2008*~

*不知不觉，我们已经认识了六年。在2002年，就是我们开始认识彼此都没想到可以变很好很好的朋友。大家毕业了往自己的方向走。最开心的事就是，虽然毕业分开了四年，见面的时候还是一样热情一样有温暖的感觉。每一年，就是等这一餐团圆饭。

为什么吃团圆饭呢？一，每个人可以集合在一起，但每年的团圆饭都没有35团员来到。二，可以回想我们下乡开心的日子。

说会开心和伤心，我真得很久感受不到什么是开心什么是伤心。可能越来越老，人自然没有感情了，或对感情没要求。唯一的感情就是放在家人和朋友的身上。很多人都说，我怎么样才会学习去爱别人呢？他们的意思就是我的life partner.到现在，最爱的人还是自己。要爱一个人不容易。不想活在一个很为难很痛苦的世界里。。。

~我和我妹~

2008-01-26T11:10:00.001+08:00

~*我和我妹*~

*很多人都说我跟我妹一点都不像，我们也这么觉得。还记得我们小时候的样子长得还是一模一样的！大概我们差不多三岁时吧。我妹小我六岁，小时候我们的感情不算好啦因为年龄的关系。但是，一直到我们一起到西马生活感情就变成越来越好。每个星期天都会抽时间出来见个面。

我常觉得对我妹太严了！可能因为很想保护她不想她受任何伤害。看到她读书读到那么辛苦，想帮也帮不了忙因为我不是念电脑课程的。哈哈！好可怜哦！

当家里最大的孩子还真的不容易。很累，有时候很孤单。很想回到十年前的我，什么都不用想。每天都很开心地过日子，开心得像个开心果一样。而现在的我，就要扮到很开心的样子，不想身边的人看到我不开心的脸。

我每天都会问一问自己，“我们到底为谁而活呢？”不管为自己或别人而活，还是要继续走下去。走了二十多年的路程也教了我们很多东西，看清楚很多事情。不要为别人而改变自己，一定要为了自己而改变。这样才是真正的自己。

有时候，想放慢脚步听一听别人的想法。在朋友当中我每次都发出最多意见。突然很想听别人的想法。每个人都会对事情有不一样的看法，但最后的决定还是要自己好好的想一想然后才知道自己应该要怎么做。需要一个属于自己的空间不受别人打扰。

在我们的一生中，会遇到三种人（这是我一个朋友跟我说过的）一，爱你但你不爱的人。二，你爱但不爱你的人。三，你们彼此相爱但不能在一起的人。很多人都会跟不是自己最爱的人在一起。跟自己最爱的人在一起不代表会白头到老。不能跟自己爱的人在一起，是不是很遗憾很悲伤呢？如果已经做到最好，不需要觉得遗憾，就回头跟自己说“曾经跟你相遇，是我一生中最棒的回忆！”这样，是不是可以放松自己然后活得更开心？*

~Most Important Part of Your Body~

2008-01-26T11:06:00.000+08:00

~*Most Important Part of Your Body*~

*My mother used to ask me: "What is the most important part of the body?"

Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct answer. When I was younger, I thought sound was very important to us as humans, so I said, "My ears, Mommy.

"Mother said, "No Many people are deaf. But you keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon."

Several years passed before she asked me again. Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated the correct answer. So this time I told her, "Mommy, sight is very important to everybody, so it must be our eyes." Mother looked at me and told me, "You are learning fast, but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind.

"Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge. Over the years, Mother asked me a couple more times and always her answer was, "No, but you are getting smarter every year, my child."

Then on 31st Dec 2006, my grandma died. Everybody was hurt. Everybody was crying. Even my father cried. I remember that especially because it was only the second time I saw him cry. My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final good-bye to Grandma.

Mother asked me, "Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?"

I was shocked when she asked me this now. I always thought this was a game between her and me. Mother saw the confusion on my face and told me, "This question is very important. It shows that you have really lived in your life. For every body part you gave me in the past, I have told you was wrong and I have given you an example why. But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson."

Mother looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up with tears. Mother said, "My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder."

I asked, "Is it because it holds up my head?"

Mother replied, "No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry. Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only hope that you have enough love and friends that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it."

Then and there I knew the most important body part is not a selfish one. It is sympathetic to the pain of others. People will forget what you said... People will forget what you did.... But people will NEVER forget how you made them feel...*

~圣诞快乐。。。~

2008-01-26T10:27:00.000+08:00

~*圣诞快乐。。。*~

*Felt that I just reach Sg for Christmas celebration and now I am back in Msia again sob sob, to the place that full of all sort of stress! Christmas, Christmas, Christmas! I was in the Grace Methodist Church in Sg for Sunday and Christmas celebration. Most of us use the word ‘Xmas’ all the time. Well, during the Sunday service, the speaker said “ I don’t celebrate a Merry X’ mas”. How can we celebrate “Christmas” without “Christ”?

Can you celebrate a birthday without a birthday boy or birthday gal? The answer is definitely “NO”. Everyone is celebrating Christmas everywhere in the world but did anyone really know the meaning of Christmas? Ask people around you, i. Do you celebrate Christmas? If yes proceed to ask, ii. Why do you celebrate Christmas? Iii. Do you know the meaning of Christmas? iv. What do you do during Christmas? People who know the real meaning of Christmas will not treat it as a fun, or time to be happy or time to go for holidays! YES, we celebrate Christmas as we celebrate the birth of Christ, our Lord Jesus！

Christmas is my favorite celebration of all the celebrations. Why? Just feel peace in life when Christmas season comes. Felt the bliss, felt the happiness, felt the love! For the past 15 years, I have been celebrating Christmas in Sg. Back in 2000-2004 I was not in Sg for Christmas, as that were the years I was back in the university and celebrated in KL with my dearest housemates! It was real memorable and sweet, every year we’ll have dinner on Christmas eve, then proceed to wait for countdown in KL, waited patiently for countdown, stand for about 7-8 hours waiting due to the crowds and no place to sit at all! When the clock strikes at 12 mid night sharp, there will be hug and kisses and then the party starts! Went crazy walking along the street at Golden Triangle and sprayed peoples, cars around with the foam spray like nobody business. Waaaaa, I love that kind of life, no stress and nothing! Just enjoy enjoy enjoy! Time passed real fast but the feeling was like it just happened yesterday and recently。

The most enjoyable Christmas in Sg was my recent visit there. Really enjoyed the companion by my cousin and her bf. Well, good looking, smart, funny boy! Why I say boy yea…hmmm, is because he is just 18! We have lots and lots and lots of chats! Talking none stop and I feel like I am “obasan” already! Both of them really a sweet young couple. Love each other like no one around them. Have lots of future plans where I don’t have most in my life. Erm, like how to move forward in the relationship, how to stay with each other forever, how to love each other forever. I miss the companion and I miss them so much!! Hwaaaa hwaaa….I wanna go back there! I believe God has HIS own plan for me. I think I have to be serious and real serious to start looking for a job there. What’s the plan? Resign and go over and start the job hunting? Or wait for the news from others (too dependent right)? I am just too confused what should I do…*

~GreaT adviCe for eVerYone~

2008-01-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

~*GreaT adviCe for eVerYone*~

*Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough & know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate!

Don't regress.Don't live in the past.
Time can't bring anything or anyone back.Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your biologicalclock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some oflife's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.

To make yourself happy, pursue your passions & be the best of what you canbe.
Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits, anddangerous liaisons.
on't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.

Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.

It isn't true that life does not get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid.
Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.

Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old.
Just grow YOU!

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your lifethat you'll never get back.
Your time is your life.
That is why the greatest gift you can give tosomeone is your time.
Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love isT-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or providefor others, but how much we give of ourselves.
God is good all the time!*

*Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you'vedecided to see beyond the imperfections. ..*

~我和靓女Maggie,Anta 和靓仔Alan!~

2008-01-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

~*我和靓女Maggie,Anta 和靓仔Alan!*~

嗨！这是我和Maggie,Anta & Alan!!很靓女靓仔对不对?..这是我们在越南拍的照片！越南很热很热。。。热死我们了啦！真的很幸福因为马来西亚虽然是热，但没越南那么热！真的会害死人的啦！很开心！希望可以和Anta,Maggie和Alan弟，再一次一起去旅行。。。

~*@-PriNCe$s 纡妤*~